This past week the Universe has been showing me every where in my life where I doubt (this is the next step in my transition processing from blame, shame and now to doubt).  I have been experiencing doubt in my ability to make money, my ability to share my gifts, my ability to stay healthy.

If I truly feel into the doubt, it doesn’t really exist, there is no root to it, it just kind of floats around and is difficult to catch.  It still exists in my being somewhere and through my explorations I have found that it lives in the intricate web of my ego (that thing keeps getting in my way).

So I started deeply exploring doubt and why we all have it.

As I began asking these questions my Guides and Teachers gathered around me and assisted me in gaining the perspective that I was so longingly seeking.  Here are the answers they gave me.

Where does doubt come from?  Why is that voice even in my head?  

Fears of your parents and your community is how you first learn doubt, along with fears of your own that you have collected throughout your lifetime.  People like to gather hurts and betrayals and carry them around like suitcases, so that they will always remember and so it will never happen again.  That is the voice - “Don’t let that happen again, you must never forget”, but it doesn’t work, it just makes you slower and more tired.  It is time to forgive yourself, and set down those suitcases to move forward with lightness and speed.

Why do I doubt the Universe?  

Because it seems like you are not getting what you want, what you need.  You need money, you need independence, you need help.  You have all of those things already.

How come it seems like I don’t have these things?

Because your vision is limited, because you live in a world that wants you to feel lost and separate.  As humanity on Earth moves more fully into the 4th age, you all will begin to feel much more connected, the feelings of separation will lessen.  As you move into the Heart age, that separation and loss will diminish and you will all see more clearly.

Your ego’s need to feel special, to be an individual is what keeps you in separation from all that you truly are.  You are special right now, you don’t have to be separate, part of your true beauty is your connection to all of humanity and the Universe.  The 3rd age, the one that you are currently transitioning from, was all about working with our individual power, but the fourth age is about the power of Unity.

I release my feelings of loss and separation, I believe in Unity.

Why do I doubt myself?

You doubt yourself because you do not see what we see, because you want everything now. Every manifestation takes the exact amount of time that you need to be in full alignment with it. If you have any doubt it will take longer to come to you.  Take this time now to clear your doubt, to stop rejecting yourself and see how far you have come and how well you are doing.

How do I do that?  

Practice sitting in your witness, where your true essence is, where your core is, you are just consciousness - nothing else.  The more time you sit in your witness the more vast your perspective will become, and you will begin to see the patterns and lessons of your life much more clearly.

But if I am the creator of my own existence then how come I keep getting in these situations?

It is because you don’t fully trust yourself.

Why? - Because you don’t see all that you have accomplished, and your strength.

Why? - Because you see what you think others see, you need to see clearly for yourself. Doubt works to let us see only the things that are not working, if you focus on what is working that will help defeat the doubt.

How do I do that?

With Love, seeing from your heart, allowing all of the energy to flow straight out of your heart. Many people spend so much time protecting their hearts and that is what truly stops us from living the life that we desire.  Keep your heart open no matter how painful it is, the pain is an illusion, a tool to get your attention to what is actually happening right now, and not what your ego wants you to believe.

Do we truly understand the nature of our minds?  How we think, what we think we know about life and ourselves?  

You are limited by your perspective and need to continually work on changing that perspective, not getting stuck in the one-sided view that you are so used to.

After this Q&A Session with my Guides, they suggested that I share the mirror meditation with as many people as possible to help see past the doubt.  One of my clients was given the mirror meditation as an assignment last week, and she has already started to have a much greater perspective on herself.

Try doing the mirror meditation for 5 days for 5 minutes.  Look at yourself in the eyes for 5 minutes, then spend 5 minutes of writing afterwards about your experience.  After the 5 days look back to see how you have evolved, how you see yourself differently, how you see others differently.  And let me know about your experience.

It has been life changing for me and for many of my clients. The first day seems like it is difficult but then it gets much easier and you actually look forward to it.

My New Perspective

As the answers infiltrated my being I began to see a new truth and new way of gauging our progress.

Doubt is judgement of ourselves, how we think we have failed, that we will not be able to fulfill our dreams.  But what are we measuring ourselves against, how do we know we have failed?

We have been using an outdated scale that was never meant to show our success and our true gifts of how we work and express as women.

We need to create our own rubric where we measure our progress towards our own goals.  A way to clearly state our goals, and do it from a place of staying in our witness, and not judging ourselves.

Throw out the old paradigm.  How do you want to be?

Create a plan and move forward.

Start in a new perspective; not judging, but learning from each of your experiences and consciously integrating all the lessons that you have learned to create the path in front of you. What are the patterns, the symbols, the beauty and the art?

The path is here, you just have to clear away all the crap and empty the suitcases.  Dust, clean, mop, vacuum, clear it out. Process the ego, so that the light of your true essence will shine through.

How can you challenge yourself, how can you clearly know your ambition to grow, and the rate at which you are changing and expanding?  How can you clearly see what is working and what is not?

Facing and overcoming challenges, expanding, learning, connecting with energy, how do we measure this for ourselves in a neutral, conscious way to move forward and create what we want?  This is my passion in discovering new ways of truly seeing how amazing and abundant we truly are.

We need to stop rejecting ourselves.

The sun rings the truth that it is all going to work out beautifully.  We will all get there in time.  We are pure beauty and truth.

To fulfill my passion and to help whoever is called, I will be offering 10 - 30 minute consultation sessions for developing your new rubric, your new way of measuring your progress, your way.  Fill out the form and if you are one of the first 10 people you will receive an email to schedule your appointment.

Much Love,

Jacquelyn

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