This morning I felt a pang of icky energy, and was surprised to discover that is was jealousy.
I was texting with a friend of mine, who I haven’t hung out with for a while. We used to spend a lot of time together, and we haven’t been aligning lately. It isn’t a bad thing, it’s a natural energetic break from each other, it is mutual, and I mostly feel aligned with this break from hanging out.
Then today when he told me that he was meeting someone for dinner I felt that pang of icky energy. I felt bad that he didn’t ask me to hang out, and that he would rather hang out with this other person that he doesn’t see very much.
It only took me a minute to realize that I was feeling jealous. I don’t usually feel jealous, most people I know tell me that I am the least jealous person they have ever met. My feelings about jealousy are that there is no need to waste energy on being jealous, if you are meant to be with people, or to have something then you will. If you don’t then it’s not the right thing for you.
So, of course I decided to enter into the feelings of why I would feel jealous, or why anyone would feel jealous to see where it comes from.
This is what I discovered:
Fear of missing out
Fear of people liking other people more than you
Fear that you are not fun enough, or pretty enough, or important enough to others
Fear that you will always be alone
Fear of being alone
Desire to be wanted more
Desire to be adored by everyone, or that one person
Desire to know how adored and wanted that you are
Desire to get undivided attention
How can you feel this way without needing anyone else to give it to you?
This is usually the question that I come to after experiencing a feeling deeply to its root. How can you experience this feeling on your own?
This is one of the main questions that guides my work – ‘How can we manifest what we want in the world?’ The main desires that we all have in this world are feeling desires, I know that many of us think it is things that we desire, however it is truly how we feel when we get the things that drives us. By becoming the expert of our own feelings, and a master at bringing those feelings to our present moment makes us the magical manifestors that we crave to be.
This is how I teach this:
Find that feeling of knowing that you are adored, that you are wanted. Find it however you can, from a past experience, from a different relationship, from deep within. If you are having difficulty finding it from inside yourself, find it in a movie or a book. Find it any way that you can and practice it as much as possible.
Sit down, close your eyes, take 3 long, slow breaths in through your nose and out through your mouth. Then bring up that feeling, at first it may seem awkward and uneasy. If you are feeling unable connect with your commitment to yourself. Why do you want to feel better, why do you want to feel adored and wanted? Why even try?
This is your commitment to yourself, if you don’t commit to yourself who will.
Once you find that commitment and inspiration go back to accessing those feelings that you desire and actually feel them right here, right now.
This is how you become a master manifestor, this is how you take control of the outcomes and experiences in your life.
- Know your desired feelings, write them down or record them.
- Make the commitment to yourself, and set your very strong intention to feel better and to feel your desired feelings.
- Find your desired feelings where ever you can.
- Practice, practice, practice. The greater your commitment and practice, the more you will manifest your desires within your body and then within your world.
It is easy, and it can be difficult if you don’t have that commitment, the commitment is what makes it possible, it is what feeds the manifestation.
If you are still having difficulty accessing your desired feelings, then you need to focus on soothing and caring for your body.
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