I CAN HAVE EVERYTHING I WANT!
I have spent the last two days totally depressed. I tried to use my tools – the embracing technique, squares, walking, etc. It would help for a little while and then I would be back to being lethargic and depressed.
What the F**K!
I didn’t know what to do, nothing was helping, not even talking to my friends, nothing. Then I woke up yesterday with a sore throat and a good friend asked me “What are you not saying?”. That is exactly what I would say to someone else and I was like “nothing”, I did not know what was happening.
Lets go back to Saturday, a beautiful sunny day, I went for a hike and received an amazing healing session sitting by a waterfall. It was truly amazing. It came up that when I leave Portland that my dog would stay here. At the time I totally accepted it, that he would be better off here with his dad, and that I would miss him but it would be for the best.
I didn’t realize until last night that the thought of leaving Bodhi was totally depressing me.
It wasn’t until I finally got on my yoga mat that what needed to come out of my mouth did.
NO SACRIFICE – I CAN HAVE EVERYTHING THAT I WANT!
My soul no longer is willing to sacrifice anything, especially my dog, and I can have everything I want. This is the message that was giving me my sore throat.
So now I have made it my motto, and have even written it on my body – I will not sacrifice, my happiness, my love or my body for anything. I also made a big sign for my wall.
So I will not sacrifice my desire to travel or my relationship with my dog. While I may not be able to take him everywhere with me, I will take him where I can, and then come back and get him when I can’t take him. His dad is totally fine with that, and so is my soul – the proof – my depression is gone.
So I have decided to do a 30 day sacrifice cleanse. What does this mean?
With every choice and every action I will ask myself “What am I sacrificing?” and remind myself that I can have everything I want.
I am ready to break the cycle of sacrifice.
We have all been trained, especially as women, that sacrifice is necessary, that it is needed and unavoidable.
I call Bullsh*t!
I know truly in my heart, body and soul that sacrifice is no longer needed, if it ever was, and I am taking a stand here and now. NO SACRIFICE!
If you would like to join me I will be starting the 30 day sacrifice cleanse on Sunday for you. You will receive weekly guided meditations, daily reminders and inspiration emails and everything that has been helping me through my cleanse for only $20. I will also put together a FB group so that we can all support and help each other through this cleanse. Join Now.
If you would like a more supportive program, for $360 you can also receive 4 weekly 60 minute coaching sessions to help you see more clearly how you are sacrificing your love, life, body and soul.
I am passionate and inspired to share all of this with you. I am no longer sacrificing. I would love to have a support group to help me through this as well.